What If
There's a song on Coldplay's X&Y album called What If that got me to think back to what appropriately was approximately over a half year ago.
About half year ago, on January 2nd I got a called from an ex-coworker reminding me to visit GrX.
Every step that you take
could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
Thats the risk that you take
What if I never went through a difficult break up with my ex? Would I ever admit to God that I need help to get my life back on track?
What if my ex-coworker never called me and I never made the decision to go to GrX and I continued to attend the church in Foster City?
What if I continued to live in SF would I have come to Christ?
What if I never made that decision to attend "Membership class" and gotten to know Pastor Dave and his wonderful wife Helen Chae?
Life is funny if I stop to reflect even just within a span of half-a-year how much my life has changed. It touches me that I have struggled and wrestled (and continue to everyday) with my insecurities, inadequacies, loneliness, and to know that I belong now to Christ.
I guess you could say that regardless of what happened I'm quite an adaptable person, resilient somewhat, and would have adapted and come out from past hurts okay. Its in my personality. But now God has "put right what I got wrong to make me feel I belong" (What If - Coldplay).
I'm continually bless and humble. Not all days are perfect and I don't get it right most of the time. Most of the time left to my own devices I would continue to be clueless.
Ode to Coldplay's What If...
What If I never came to Christ?
I would be continually lost, without hope.
i love coldplay... the melody and lyrics just make me feel like I can do anything